When it rains, it pours ...

I didn't know if I should title it that, or "Do Bad Things Happen When You're Upset?" ...

Story time!

Yesterday was National Sandwich Day and I'm still pouting because I was at work and even though I hinted at it, my boyfriend (who was off) didn't bring me a sandwich. Work sucked major hairy camel ass, BUT, yay for being employed, right?

Today was MY day off and my boyfriend asked if I could take his car to be smogged while he was at work, and then go to DMV to pick up his new personalized plates. -_- This involved switching cars for the day, not a big deal, and now I get to drive Queen Victoria.

I got off to a slow start because it's my day off so naturally I want to sleep in. But then it involved reading the letter from DMV to make sure I have all my ducks in a row. I know, right? Reading on my day off ... the audacity! ;) I had to print out proof of insurance from my app. More work.

12:30ish
I texted my boyfriend to tell him that MY screwdriver (from MY pink tool bag) is missing and he calls me back ... something that didn't require a call ... instead of telling me where my damn screwdriver is, he says "you're still home??" in that tone like 'do you know what time it is?'. O.M.G. that just stoked my already short fuse ... Now I'm pissed. It's only noon. I'M the one who has to wait at DMV - DID I MENTION IT WAS MY DAY OFF?! - and he didn't even bring me a sandwich yesterday. I'm not being dramatic. I had to sit down for a minute to stop the tears.

1p
Texted him to let him know the registration wasn't in the car. If you ask me why it's not in the car ... I swear to God ...

1:12p
The smog place is half a block away, there were 3 other cars in front of me but it's going pretty fast. Got the new smog paper and I'm cruising to DMV. Still mad but feeling better, it is all blue skies and breezy. The wind thru the window is messing up my curls and I don't care because it feels nice.

DMV is 20 minutes away and halfway there I notice smoke in the passenger sideview mirror. At first I think it's dust from a dirt lot I'm passing but then I smell antifreeze, so I turn off at the first corner, pull in about a 100 feet past 3 cars that are parked near the intersection and stop the car. When I stopped driving, the sudden cease in motion caused a small cloud to *poof* in front of me and I could see it WAS indeed my car who was smoking.

1:45p
Now I've gotta call my bf at work and give him bad news. I looked under the car and saw a slow drip, but when I opened the hood there was anti-freeze EVERYWHERE.
I sent my bf pictures.
He calls up his mechanic and they arrange to send a tow truck.

Meanwhile, those cars parked at the corner had to do with a fender-bender and a cop is there taking a report. After I've been there standing/walking around the car for 20 minutes the cop must've asked someone if I was with them because I hear a guy say "no, she got here after we did". The cop starts to walk my way and asks "is everything ok over here?" (My hood has been propped up like forever, so, no.)
Me: yeah ... (initiate diarrhea-of-the-mouth-sequence) ... I recounted my life for the past half hour or so ...
Cop: yeahhhh, that's antifreeze ...
Me: -_-
Cop: this is NIIICE car. What year is this?
Me: 2007 ?
Cop: it looks brand new
Me: yeah ...
Cop: Do you need a tow?
Me: my boyfriend has arranged for one
Cop: did they say how many hours it would be?
Me: hopefully not "hours"
Cop: let me know, I can call for a tow, they'll get here quick
Me: thank you!

Cue bf who comes speeding around the corner like he stole a car and pulls up behind us. I even sent him a text: "Don't speed when you turn on Washburn, there's a cop car at the corner taking pictures ...".
After looking around and under the car for 5 minutes he finds a busted hose.
I tell him about the cops offer to get us a tow. Bf calls mechanic for ETA on their tow truck. He says '3 hours'. -_- He cancels the tow and goes to talk with the cop.
(to be continued, I have to go shower) I don't mind waiting around with the car. I am a patient person. I was born to marinate ... well, not for 3 hours, but I can wait.

Moral ofthe story: when your witch gf asks you for a sandwich ...

Let There Be Rain

Omg, people are Stupid in the rain!

It's me ... I am 'people' ... but in all fairness, I didn't hit anyone while swerving to avoid running into a lawn chair and a downed construction sign on two separate occasions.

Someone who was to my right and behind me when I swerved the first time decides they're going to get behind me.
It's probably safer to be behind me, but I felt like I was being followed, so when the light turned green I didn't move.

It's my Friday and there's lightning going on, I can stay here all night, you picked the wrong one ...

He didn't honk at me, he just went around really slow probably thinking I'm going to accelerate but like I said, I have all night. I thought that was strange. Why didn't he honk? I would've honked. 😑 Now I'm to the right and slightly behind him.

He's going 20 in a 35 (N Rainbow) ... and I'm going 19, LOL.🤣
At one of the lights there's a car in front of him and he's probably thinking he'll get behind me again.
Nope!
I just stopped til both cars passed me.
I'm in no rush to get to Walmart. 😂🤣

I fully expected a cop car to show up and ask me if I was drunk.
I had THAT conversation all planned out in my head, too.
Like,
look, I swerved to avoid slicing my tires open when I left work.
Damn.

My boyfriend will be happy to know I eventually made it home and the car is unscathed.

More rain is expected ... stay home if you can.

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I can't seem to get my ass in gear. :(

It's already June 1st.
This half-year has been a mask-wearing blur.😷

I have so many ideas in my head. So many goals I'm working towards. I sit at work and plan things, literally looking forward to my weekend, and then I get home ... and crash & burn.😴

I'm so tired. Exhausted. The veterinary field is no joke and we're so over-worked and under-staffed. I love my job but fuck.
I had a Brittany-moment and cut all my hair off last month. ✂ It should give you an indication of the level of stress I was at. They say a woman will always cut her hair when things are bad. I think our hair is symbolically the only thing we can control. I went full pixie. -_- smh. I have thick curly hair and now it's growing out. I truly didn't think that one thru.

Here goes another week (another month) that I haven't been able to start my online store. Yeah, I could do it, but I don't want to do it half-assed. It's not going to be great because I'm just getting started but it at least has to be really good, you know?

I procrastinate too much.

I need to make lists and stick to them. ☑ 

I need to spring clean my apartment after being locked up all winter. I have asthma, I really want to hire a cleaning service. I can, but then I feel I have to clean before they show up. Does anyone else go thru this? They're going to judge me if I'm messy either way. Do I care? No. And yes. Just take my money and clean my place so I can focus on other stuff, please.

I want to cry. 😔 I've had a headache the past 4 days and I keep grinding my teeth from (work-related) stress but I'm really in a good place otherwise. Better than I've been in 10 years, thank all my various gods and knock on wood!
I sleep well at night next to my ever-supportive boyfriend. 😍 I can buy, eat, and go wherever we want. But I sit here and vegetate on my days off. THIS is the rut I need to get out of. I see pictures from a year ago and I wasn't always like this but I don't know where to begin ... I think that's why I want to cry.

I hope spilling this will help, if not me then maybe someone else.

😢 Here come the tears, maybe this will help my headache.

Adulting is hard.

I had my mid-year review at work yesterday. It went well. Better than I expected anyway.

I woke up early to re-read thru an email my cousin sent me with some business information and I have the attention span of a guppy. You know the Charlie Brown cartoons when the adult is speaking but all you hear is "wah wah wahwah wah". It's like that. I have to get this done but I want someone to hold my hald thru the whole process to make sure I don't mess up.
There it is!
I'm afraid of messing up.
I can't mess up if I never start. I REALLY want this. I have to get my ass in gear.

Time to pull up my big girl panties.
Well ... first I'm going to take a nap before work THEN I'm going to tackle this business thing.

It's been forever ...

This virus is no picnic. :( I'm back though. I've been crafting so expect to see more of that.

Pandemic

Yes ... I know I haven't posted since we last went to California.
Nothing like a pandemic to bring your life to a boring, grinding halt. 🛑
Let's see:

In January we have the start of the Coronavirus epidemic that came over from Wuhan, China. Thanks for that. 🙄😑

In February we lose Kobe Bryant and his daughter in a freak helicopter crash, and the virus picks up speed claiming more lives. Schools are closed down. 🚸 Good luck trying to find toilet paper and/or bottled water.

In March, something we've never experienced in our lives, the world is placed under a modified house arrest. Social distancing comes into play: stay 6' away from people 👈1️⃣-2️⃣-3️⃣-4️⃣-5️⃣-6️⃣👉. (That's gonna make showering with my boyfriend real difficult, just sayin'.) Non-essential businesses world-wide are closed down. 🔐 $1,200 stimulus checks 💵 are given to people ... and instead of paying rent some people are out buying TV's. 🤔 (Yeahhhhhh, silently judging. 🤦🏽‍♀️)

💦🌸 April showers brings May flowers, unless you're living through a pandemic in which case April brings more self-quarantining. Aprill seems reeeaaallllllyy loooooong. (sigh)

May gave us "Murder Hornets"🐝 ... because things weren't already exciting enough, and thankfully businesses start to reopen. Then George Floyd gets killed by a cop in Minesota and all hell breaks loose. Protests and rioting ensue every night in various cities coast to coast. 🔥🔥🔥🔥
#BLM

And now we're in June ...
I love my job ... and I'm thankful I have one ... but I'm really tired of being essential. :( I'm just tired. 😴